Can anyone smell a uni drop out?

This week has provided me with some enlightening moments that I think are mostly down to listening to some half decent music for once. It struck me that I am only happy with myself when I'm in some sort of relationship and more specifically when I am in control of said relationship. Although I have been aware of this for a while I have found that living in Brighton doesn't really allow for any doubt or vulnerability since it is a place where opportunities are everywhere and everyone knows what they want to do. In short this is a city that gives you the chance to do what you want and doesn't care if you achieve it or not. This makes it hard to be in control of anything and with all the self confidence floating around you can often be left feeling a bit unsure.

So in light of this instead of running for the hills I have decided to embrace Brighton and start to actually enjoy being here and become the self assured person, I've been reliably informed, I should be. Living away from home is suppose to have a positive affect and I know its such a cliche but I do feel like I should be living each day as if its my last and at the moment I guess I don't feel like I am. I don't want to look back in 4 years and regret wasting my time waiting for something fun to find me.
The thing is that I don't think its actually being at university that has made me realise this but more just being out of Cambridge. Since Cambridge is so reluctant to allow creativity and individuality it suddenly feels like I've had my eyes opened.. So whilst I sit here avoiding my coursework as usual, it is easy for me to look at my surroundings and start to question whether I actually want to do this degree or if I just needed a big change in my life to gain some perspective..